He died for me ; i'm living for Him

Thursday, August 02, 2007

human are so superficial.

look for themselves

backstabbed and left

and they still got the face to smile at you and ask

YOU NEED HELP?

please lehs.

if u really want to backstab, i rather you dao me and give me a clear signal that

I AM GG TO BACKSTAB U, WATCH OUT.

and not smile sweetly at me and give me that

I AM SO INNOCENT, I WUN DO ANYTHING TO YOU

cute little kitty by the roadside face.

goodness gracious. PLEASE!

but i guess this is how poly runs. or at least for me.

and it don really help when the tcher is not on your side and she is trying to stand at the majority of the class's side, since she is afraid of THEM marking HER down.

but does it mean that, that give THEM the right to mark US down?

a thousand noS.

on a lighter note, me and jacinta kwee talked it out with the mgt tcher.

who gave us so called a second chance and ask us to send it what we did.

gave it our best shot.

although i am not the best mgt student around. BUT

i surely think i don deserve what i got.

true, that since the start of the sem, me and jac aint the best budd with the class ppl

on a harsher note, we can be said to be outcasted.

but as outcasted as we are, i don expect to be stabbed like this.

i mean

oucasted. u are supposed to leave the person alone right?

forget bout this class.

come next sem.

u see me and jac disappear.

most likely running into sl's class.

although there might be cliques

but they are relatively nice people.

unlike SOME PEOPLE.

bleahs.

but still.

thank GOD for jacinta kwee ca'an ping.

she's a real friend whom i found in poly. the only one that is jabbing in my ear

WAKE UP CECILIA LOO. U ND TO STUDY

(that's it, other den siewling. sl is dere to jab too during lectures)

a real support when i am so frantic trying to find the answer or the qn that the tchers shoot at me and yet pretend that i am so in control.

she whispers the answer as i malnipulate the words around

to make it sound chim yet totally utter crap.

smiles(:

eating sushi with me and sliding into class tgt

doing projects tgt.

mugging and complaining and sharing bout many things.

letting me laugh at her lang bei de yang zi when she is hands full with her bag wallet half eaten sushi laptop and even once, tried to msg while juggling all the other things.

of course, all the sleeping in library and napping around.

the walking tgt to bus stop, althou we are taking different buses.

the "meet at sushi 855, don b late" msges.

really thank you God a million to the power of thousands time, for putting this crazy girl in my life, in this poly, in my tutorial class, to be my friend.

and thanks JACINTA KWEEEEEE, the spastic princess(:

sorry if i gave all of u goose bumps. but i really want to tell her how much i appreciate her la.

haha(:
anw back to daily stuff.
as i was gg home from westmal, i thought of many things.
and what God told me was that
don despair! u have Me what. u scared what? u cry what?
yupp. so i decided to trust Him all the way.
through all these years.
i went through quite alot of things i can say.
these 3 years had been my most "exciting" years of my whole life.
and thru all these, i learnt how to trust God more. to trust in the unseen.
that is having faith.
believing in the unseen, holding on to the Truth.
and indeed, God never fails.
from at first my dad is anti me gg to church, he supported me in gg for mT.
and then it went from my mum disagreeing to let me go for MT, til now she agree to spon me the $.
really love my parents alot.
enjoy the time i have breakfast and dinner with them
i love them.
somehow. i hope my mum finds her way to my blog. and read this
although i said that to them b4
but it's always nice to see it in B&W right?
haha.
stand tall
stand strong
for my God
is Lord of all(:

10:30 PM { and i opened my heart(: