Monday, January 29, 2007
i changed fone =Dbut the person lost all my numbers.
so i have to re get it from everyone again.
now my fone book only left 40+ names.
actually only 20+. but i rmb mani ppl de .
so yahh. so pple who are reading.
do give me ur numbers
thankstoday went to work!
got 2 new ppl. samantha and unknownNO1.
samantha become my "ti si gui" ( literally. substitute ghost)
now customers run to her to ask questions!
but i have my fair share too.. but lesser den normal bahh.
guess dey jus like to ask those dumb looking girls. more helpful? =Doh yahh. bee kuan and amanda just happened to ask me
WHERE DID HUMAN COME FROM?
so i said. GOD CREATED NOR.
they: He so free meh. create so mani ppl!
me:He can do mani mani things one eu noe. He is the Almighty! =D
they: really meh.
me: yahh. .
wanted to say more. cos good chance lehh. . but jus den. joanne walked past. faster run to work liao. siann.
nvm. good experience anyway?
wonder if samantha is christian or not. hahahahahaafter work, went to buy mac with amanda. hungry lehh. .
den we went home.
on the bus. got a guy and his 2 fwen(girls).
the guy keep saying he heard a voice call him.
den me and amanda got hear dao mah. so we um chio.
but his 2 fwen didnt hear leh.
the guy: eu all really nv hear meh! got leh!
2 fwens don hiew him
amanda pity him. so she answered: got! i heard. 2 times right!
guy: * nod head* yahh!!! see!! where ar. is who ar.
den he walked thru the whole bus . looking at everyone's face.
finally. he found. is his fwen nahh. lame.
but his frightened face very kawaii. he scared if is ghost. LOLS.big mix up between me and yy.
lame leh. i change to 10-6 to pei ni de lor.
den eu change to 6-10.30 to pei wo. .
suan ler. at least it show how "impt" we are to each other. LOLS.its late. ppl. slp! night!
11:42 PM { and i opened my heart(:
Sunday, January 28, 2007
today is actually a good day. but it ended bad. den it became good. was it? not sure.went for cafe duty early morning. put alarm clock for 6.45. i wake up. see the sky. raining. so i prayed for the rain to stop. den i went back to slp. for some reason. woke up due to ann calling me! and its already. *drum rolls* 7.30 am =D
chiong down to church. ended up i wasnt the latest wor. hahahas.i was the noodle girl. den siheng and lopez were frontliner. small and mid BENs are runners. others are all kitchen. oh ya! qing was the cashier. cos she is the OLD ONE! =DD had mani mani fun. with the uncle doll doll. lopez imitated him. but bu xiang de. cos he not fat enuf. hahas. but the distorted face is alike thou. HAHA. anyone wan wan see the photo. find me! LOLS.after cafe duty. we sat at the table playing the *clap clap point point* game.
*clap clap * * zhuo zi*
*clap clap* * yi zhang*
so on and so forth.
i wasnt the noobest. small and mid BENs are!!!!!
after dat actually me edward lopez rowena wanted to go queensway. but the rest wanted jp. so we went witht the crowd. halfway dere. we wanted to go qw. but they wan to go lot 1 again. so we went with the crowd again. debating wan to go qw not. no one wan decide. so in the end. WHATEVER. lets go other day. best solution ler mahh. . went home with rowena first. cos my parents wan me to meet them. change fone. =D so we left first. forget return thing to someone. sian. went to plaza to meet them. my mother gave me the *xi lang bin* (hokkien). so don wan to talk to her. talked to my father nias. den later reach home. she went looney tUNES. her: i see other ppl. hold their mother hand one lor. den i see my own daughter don wan talk to me. so ke lian., next time lao liao. so liao lah. mei ren yang lah.
me: is eu give me stupid face one lehs.wadever lah.
her: see. da liao. bu ting hua. stil noe how to talk back. mei you yong liao lah. idiot one leh. dono why i will have a idiot daughter. dono isit girl in the first place. dono how to help with hsework one.i *hm* all the way. i *hm* means i heard wad she said. don mean i AGREE. den some looney bird. pls lah. don think eu are dat unique lor. the world not only eu can have lor. lame lah.don think everyone is out to be the YOU. it doesnt work this way. instead of saying me. why not just point the fingers back to urself. for those who understand. understand it. those who don. don bother. bye.
11:20 PM { and i opened my heart(:
Saturday, January 27, 2007
26jan! i went for drill test. scary eh. cos no one realise is nid commander de.
so last min noe liao. den everyone point fingers ard. in the end xueli. but due to unsaid reason. the commander became ME. den i was like. huh. eu nv give me time to scared lor. hahas.
each command shout 12 times lehs. den i hinted to the girls mani times. * ahems. to any DI out there reading. close ONE EYE. =D* den yy take the another grp. eu good wad. don always scared mah! hahas.after dat went to imm(pronouced as IMM~ according to von.)
eat at the long beach restaurant thingy. not nice one. pple don eat dere. after dat von called said dey coming imm! den hong used dat dumb voice to talk. bishh. =D went to meet them after finishing the dinner. i mi lu leh! cos i dono fish&co at whr. . by the time i reached. dey 3 dono why. so happy to treat me eat thier left over sotongs. eeek. not nice too. maybe im too full to taste. hahas.walked ard. den we went to JU REN. to walk. hong bth us. cos me and qing in the certain aisle, we can stay for 1/2h. den hong give that FAINTS face. den later in the sweet section. me and qing debated over the different sizes of dino. lols. he faints even more. HAHAHHA.qing sent all of us home. von den hong den me. thanks qing.27jan.
i woke up at 6am. to pass khoon my boots. cos she today got DI test or wad de. JIAYOU!=D
went back to slp again. jus woke up. later got cell and snl! CHEERS!
10:34 AM { and i opened my heart(:
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
today no work
cos got drill
it was horrible
sad but true
but it picked up
only at the end.
was the devil of today.
selection test
im the one who
broke the news
to the 3 poor girls
seeing them running
to the toilet, crying
breaks my hart.
cos i knew.
knew how it felt
i see myself
in them. i can hear God talking to me thru them.
He is telling me to let GO.
OF THE PAST. OF THE BITTERNESS
rather den holding on the bitterness.
why not allow the sweetness to overtake eu.
this answer came 2yrs later.
but its alright.
nv felt so at peace of this matter before
can feel myself really letting go of this past.
i THANK GOD. for revealing this truth to me.
for the drill com girls who are reading:
don think the worst had come.
there's always higher challenge waiting for eu.
for the 3 girls who are out:
rmb wad i say. take this chance.
to work even harder.
just wait for that one FINE DAY.
eu might even achieve higher den those girls in the compeitition.
enuf of sad thing. talk bout laughing til i peng.
jackson and suyu are really. so PEI!
they both can make eu luf til eu bth. can roll on flr dat kind.
those who wan to gain weight.
pls go out with them. hahahaha
oh yahh! i fell down today!!! so diu lian
for those who wan to noe how/why
ask me urself. hahahas.
nights! and the light went off. POOF.
11:54 PM { and i opened my heart(:
i was late for work today
yooohooo. expected-scolding.
actually nth happen one lor. rose and dolly let me off de noor. den dat kaypoh aunty. go ask jessie come. hai me de nor! wads ur prob leh whoever dat kaypoh is. green apron say okay liao right. . wadever lah. its over.
siti gave me display to do. mirrors. bryan came to make me smile. cos he noe i got scolding. thanks.
job was good overall. fun even. one dumb incident. i was displaying bikini btm. (LAME. ) den bryan say. eh. why no top!
den i say. why leh. don have dat means don have mah.
den he say. huh. den dey go out wear the btm jiu hao lah? don wear top?
i diao him. den i said. eu wan to see isit.
HAHAHAHA.
after work. walked with weiyan and bryan to the bus stop. thought its only the 2nd day we are walking dere together. weird. it seems so familiar and. . close. lyk we've been thru it mani times.
talked alot with bryan on the bus. den gladys called. while im drinking water! while the bus is turning! while im not holding on the anything. so. a dumb can guess wad happen. den i dono wad hold my fone. or close the cap of my drink. or hold the handle.
in the end. i kiap my fone on my shoulder. close the bottle cap and hold unto bryan arm. cos dats the nearest thing assessible. LOLS.
walking back home. i began to think of mani things. mood swing liao. sorry to hong and lopez. eu all talked to me. den i attitude. sorry guys.
why do human choose to life by a worldly standard of measuring how successful a person is? lets say eu are earning less den 2k/mth. yet eu are doing a job which give eu happiness. eu are measured as LOUSY BUM. but if eu had a job dat pays 6k/mth . but everyday is jus routine. boring. can do til slp. ppl see eu as SUCCESSFUL.
wad a lousy way of defining. a job is jus a job. im jus 16. im stil studying. i don work for the sake of money now. i don have a house to pay. i don have a car to maintain. im not a guy. i don have to support a wife. as long as i live within my limits. i have enuf to spend. i don have to work everyday from 9am -10pm. i wan LIFE. i don wan a job dat tie me down. cant eu JUS GET THIS STRIAGHT! stop asking me why am i not working on certain days. its up to me wheather i wan to work on that day or not. as long as im working legally. it has no business of urs to tell me when to and when NOT TO. stop saying til im such a wasteful person who jus live on EARTH to waste OXYGEN.
i noe eu have the authority. i cant say eu are abusing it. yet i cant say eu or not. but if we are all in this. cant eu jus give me a place to say my piece. don i have any place to stand? maybe the past had proven something. but now is NOW. now is NOT THE PAST. we cant always take the PAST to measure NOW. the time had CHANGE. take it or GO AWAY. everybody nid a chance. cant eu jus give the girl a chance.
STOP WATCHING ME LIKE A HAWK.
12:16 AM { and i opened my heart(:
Monday, January 22, 2007
wahh. . didnt noe i so long nv blog le lehh. .
lets see. on the 17th we had 10th coy drill com prac. hong weiyan lopez came down. hong is cos wan me teach maths. weiyan. i oso dono. lopez cos RSM mah. wan see their standards. hahah..
kinda. . proud? of their drills. saw their effort put in. i hope not to disappoint anyone this wed thou. those who noe wads gonna happen. SHH! =D
after dat went to church office with the guys. cos hong ask me teach. quite boring actually. cos all the zealot pple dere. den i only girl sitting in YI office. so i read PURPOSE DRIVEN LIFE lor. . learnt not to think dat im alone. but instead spend the so called bored time, with God!
after dat i got my black KTF shirt from qing! den she sent us home. we talked all the way in the car. complained alot to qing. thanks for being patient! =D
friday was the first parade i went for the 19th side. frightening. cos i dono the ppl there. so abit no diff from the sec 1s dere. hahah. . only diff? im wearing jeans. =/ mixed with them. talked to the sec 1s.. after dat something lame happened. so in the end. went to joey hse to play. joey is so SWEET cann. . love her to bits. haha. .
ate cup noodles at her hse. as usual. its me and lopez. von dey all not so hungry. eat chips niaa. haha talked til bout 1030. den von de dad sent me to lot1! hahaha. .
sat. CHURCH day!played bingo for games. lame. s play by alphabets mah. den mingyang. ownself is game master. dono how to divide properly!! den rowena trying to get wad is 2^3. hahaha. . so farnie the scene.
von came my hse stay that nite! den we planned the fancy drill til 4am. den we slp. TIRED!
on sun. woke up go meeting.so tired. think we woke up at 8. den von kik me. i ask her go bathe. i wan slp. den she SHOKE me up. =((
had a busy week. this week is worse. =/ haha.. but its all worth it! cos its all brigade stuff. hahah. .
3:59 PM { and i opened my heart(:
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
woke up at 11am. slp again at 2pm. i think i had a fever. but i didnt go measure temp. cos don wan to noe the truth. so i jus cover blankie. and slept. was woke up by a dumbass. who called to scold me. im sick can. pity lehs. hahas. but feeling so much better now. though. very cold lehs. wearing long pants and jacket now. brr.thursday and friday is coming. i better be well before den. or not. jiu da(4) shi(4) bu(4) miao(4). hahahas.
com so laggy nowadays. i wan poly to start fast. den i can gett my own laptop. with good speed! wahahas. but first. i nid a job lehs. sian. anyone wan intro pls!??!?!?!?!
6:24 PM { and i opened my heart(:
Monday, January 08, 2007
do eu all find it weird when eu noe someone for mani years. yet eu cant tell the person ur deepest worries and secrets?
but yet its soooo easy to confide in someone whom eu barely noe for maybe lyk. a year?
is it becos the person dono eu well. dats why they don have the motive to hurt eu?
but as eu trust in the "barely-knew-person", eu cant talk to the person bout daily stuff. yet eu are able to talk bout them freely to the "knew-for-years"?
why do we have like. person X is for confiding. person Y is for crapping. person Z is for "blah x3".
why cant we have jus a person. the "barely-knew" yet the " knew-for-years" all in one?
why do ppl get suspicious of everything ard them?
even those things not of their business. dey oso bother?
why do pple get two faced?
why are human created with feelings?
if this is an unfeeling world. maybe it will not a totally bad thing?
maybe we can cr8 a world of goodness.
all good feelings de. but like dat. everyone will be falling in love with everyone else?
JOKE. laugh.
why do we resent those who are close to us?
why do human compete?
why do human all aim to be the top? the best of everything?
why do human have conflicting minds?
why is it so hard to guess a person mind?
why is it when eu believe totally in sth. yet the thing fails eu?
why is it so hard to rebuild trust after its shattered before?
why do we have to grow up?
actually i noe the asnwer.
i jus wanna rubbish. its hard to regain trust after i had disappointed them the last time. but i will try. by faith, i will succeed.
9:50 PM { and i opened my heart(:
Sunday, January 07, 2007
PLAN IT. DREAM IT. DO IT. eh. not bad sehh. my motto of life. LOLS. i think im gonna dream of OPEN UP THE GATES permenantly liaos. i listened to it for more den 50 times liaos. and i finally worked out the beats! von! here i come! WITH UR 360 BEATS. actually i nv use all 360 beats. tell eu more this friday. hahas. went job hunting with yy today. go register at the swissotel. have to go training lehs. hahas. den we went to imm. walked ard. every shop shuang jiu asked. hahas. quite fun actually. talked alot. very long nv talk to her ler.. so miss the times ehh.. at last. HOME FIX. sth jus asked me to go in and asked. thou there is no VACANCIES FOR.. poster outside.
so we went in. and the guy interviewed us. sort of bahs. hahas. whhheh! he say he will call tmr. so til den. PRAYING HARD! den we went to mac to discuss fancy drill. i wanted to go buy newspaper. den on the way. guess who i saw! cos i saw KEEP THE FAITH de shirt. den i see beside the person de hair. eh. lyk zhong ben lehs. den i see the KEEP THE FAITH guy. eh. lyk junhong. eh. the girl lyk zhiqing lehs. EH! IS THEM LEHS! felt so reatrded. LOLS. so lame. back at mac. we keep listening to the song. den count beats. draw/doodle on the paper our ideas. finally we worked out sth. ACHIVEMENT! this sat going von hse stay to work out the details. WHHHEHH!!
GOD is GREAT. He will always PROVIDE. so DON WORRY. and let HIM take the WHEEL!
11:47 PM { and i opened my heart(:
Saturday, January 06, 2007
today is CHURCH DAY! met doti at 1. cos wan to do bible study b4 going to church. budden arhs! i go collect specs mahs. (its yellow!) so drag til bout 1.45 den we start. den im lyk. OMG! cell start at 2.45 arhhs! anyways. i prayed for God to provide me with more time somehow. den by 2.30. we are stil not done! so bopian. ask doti to do on the bus. =/ and on the way. i prayed to ask God, if cant make us early, make someone be late. so dat we wun be the latest! LOLS. wad a lousy prayer ehh. den hor! 2.50 i call von.
sounding very dui bu qi, : eh von. we now den reaching only lehs. hehe.
von: eh. nvm lehs. mingyang haven reach. he will be late wahahhas! God answered my prayers! hahahhas.. games was fun. but lame. as usual me and rowena is the laughing pair. we luf til peng. playing BLOW WIND BLOW.
someone: BLOW THOSE WHO STUDY SCIENCE!
me: EH! STUDIES OR STUDIED?!
others: studies or studied got diff mehs.
by the time i realised the actual one, everyone already sitted ler. ROAR. it was STUDIES btw. =/
next game is WACKO. lame lor. edward started sth. call someone but point to another. den make the person gong. den i was laughing til peng tat kind of pattern mahs. den dono who call my name. so i wanted to call doti. but wad came out was literally : DOR-DOR-DOR den junhong hooted me with the newspaper. den everyone started making fun of me. =( den i luf til bth. wan cry liaos. den junhong chased me away from the seat. so i half stand half fall. and i tripped on junhong leg! wahh. bth. =/ why every wk game me and rowena oso will luf til cry one. hahas. sermon AWESOME! str8 down to the ROOTS! =D
tmr going to look for job with yy they all lerhs. desperate for a job now! by next TUES! God will do miracles. YAHH! I BELIEVE! trust..
10:57 PM { and i opened my heart(:
Thursday, January 04, 2007
if eu all haf no mood to see someone complain now. GO AWAY. everything just happen to bother me recently. nth goes right. maybe a little. den it will all go wrong again. i think im PMS-ing. wadever. mother pressurizing me to "GET A JOB BY TUESDAYS OR ELSE I WILL FIND IT FOR YOU." direct quotation.
wadever lehs. she find one cfm those rubbish ass de. 8 to 5 kind. den i will not have time for brigade. no time for anything else. its rubbish crap man.
so i went job hunting today in bpp. asked 4 stores. some have no vacancy. some say nid 18 and above. some say wan til july. short summary-NOT SUCCESSFUL. at least i tried alright. and it didnt help when my brother added salt to the wound as he annouced dat he got a job dat pays 30/hr. grr.
on top of dat. HELLO. i had injuries okay. so stop bugging me bout my slackness. don expect too much.
now im sneezing lyk no one's business and wad everyone care bout is if im ready for tmr drill. wadever.
im turning rebellious. take it or leave it. I NEED GOD BIG TIME. NOW AS IN N-O-W!
9:56 PM { and i opened my heart(:
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
WEE! its 2007 lerhhs.recap of 2006
-CAME BACK TO GOD.
-ACTS4!!!
-dorothy accept CHRIST. i SHARED! =D
-O LVL. mugging. UNFORGETTABLE..
-thoning with bunch of good fwens on XMAS EVE.
-go to 4e1 chalet! THOU.. im not from 4e1. LOLS.
mani things happen in 2006. bad and good. but i shall learn from the bad and keep all the goods in my heart. hahahs. mani mani things waiting for me in 2007. i believe..today went to practice for orientation. at first really no confidence. cos i keep doing wrong. cos the kekenan on march. i thought is folo gb style. so i trained at home using dat method. and when i came. dey say. OH! CHANGED LEH. NOT DAT KIND. i sian diao. sian SIAN. but nvm. i learn the new method. mann. learn for 1/2hr only right? i noe im sec 4. my basics are dere. but oso no nid pressure me. within 1/2hr perfect marhs. SIAO. but i nv complain alot lah. jus do lor. pple rest i try on my own lor. but at times got ask von and audrey help me see. WAHAHAS. thank you eu 2. love eu girls. mani mistakes on my part. but i stil tried my best. wrong jus cover up. super smoking mann. hahahs.. sam and alicia came. WEEH! nv see them for long time lerhs. sam praised me. so happy. cos morale super low at that time. kip doing wrong. lols. we trained hard. and long time. somemore. i have to learn timing. so as to help gladys. can see she dying of lack of breathe. LOLOLS. so i helped her. imagine. count 1 to 32 without breathing in the midst. and shout it. and shouting clearly pple! hahas. BTH. my twenty-two and twenty-three sounded lyk dono wad. became super chao ta. my mama look at me and she WAH. WAD EU DO LAH! me. =/
tmr still got practice. good luck to us. hahas.
8:35 PM { and i opened my heart(:
