Tuesday, May 29, 2007
as comments on how distracted i am this week. i began to think. what had caused this in me.jus like how jacinta says it : you are always spacing out. and it's getting scary.even my blaw tcher "expressed his concerns" by asking if im alright, since i looked so blank and distracted. many a times, i even caught myself spacing out and literally forced my attention back to whoever i am with.sometime i rather that i am jus alone, so that i can space out for all i care. so that i don have to keep checking myself and looking "un-blank" and "un-distracted". but then i know it ain't me to keep doing this. i have to stop it.that's why i have been cramming in social activities into my life since last mon. but sadly to say, i realise i am actually a loner, and there are actually not anyone who cud be there. there was, now there wasn't. hard to believe? i once told one of my friend that i am loner. whoever it was, he/she laughed me off and say "bu ke neng lah ni". but why not?the amount of friends u have is calculated is when u don have time and yet they are dere for u , and even after everything is over and u finds them back, they are stil there. not those who had just moved simply not waiting for you. i feel like a dock. ships pass and go, but never one stays to accompany the dock. THE dock is waiting for THE ship):
9:44 PM { and i opened my heart(:
