surrounded by people. who say dey will support you no matter what! but when trouble come. and dey are overwhelmed. poof. u are gone from their head. left to fend for yourself. thinking that no one care. and eu look up in despair. thinking why is God not helping me. and eu see it. eu see God's face. He had been looking after you all along. even if He is not AROUND you. He is always THERE. somewhere. that eu don notice.

its not that He is not THERE. its just that you didnt look THERE.

sermon was very true and to the heart today. it took him 2 years to answer a prayer of mine. a question that is always in my mind. that i don dare to voice out. rarely ppl noe bout it. except for one i guess. i complain. i scolded God for it. why didnt He helped me. but now i noe. it was for my own good. God. i thank you for everything.had a vision today. yes. its true. im gonna work closely with God. i wanna noe wad He wants me to do.

today cell and dinner was so funnyy!!!!!! cos forfeit was chilli. (big and small), tobasco sauce with potato chips,lemon slices. its like OMG? and somemore. the game we played is---- the *clap clap snap snap* game! name game. and i;m like. super slow in that game? ahahasthank God dere were "slower" players in the cell. its combined with 4.2 btw. in the end. qing yang midBEN tio chilli. forget if stil got other ppl not. hahas. hong tio potato chip. lan lor him. cant finish. nid ppl help. why hong? long ti cant take it? hahahas.

den during dinner time. after everyone eat finish. so lame. yang kendrick qizhi and a few guys from other cell. play game. SEE WHO CAN EAT THE MOST CHILLI!!! lame lah. cant eat chilli stil wan play. den in the end. some of them cry. den face red red. don wan say is who. don make them diu lian. hahas. den i offered tissue and my drink to them. hahahhas. lousy lah eu guys. but watching eu all tear is fun. HAHAS.

i stil cant get over my english results. God. help me. when people ask me if im happy bout my results or not. i dono if my answer shud be a yes or a no. yes i got the distinction. but it doesnt mean anything right?! those w/o >5 distintions. can even get better results den those who did right. so it didnt meant anything. wad mattered was the overall aggregate. and. i dono. im jus disappointed. yet i cant be disppointed in front of certain ppl. munkidd. if eu are reading. eu understand wad i mean right. =/but stil i will thank God that my english wasn't a D7. thank God that He gave me the 5 distinctions. thank God that He had gave me a1 for my CH. really. by God's grace. a blind wud noe im hopeless in CH. and i passed my chem. can eu ppl believe it. i studied like only 2 wks prior to chem exams. munkidd. proud of me? WHHHEH! thank God. you rocked my world. i LOVE YOU!!!

i surrendered my life to Your ways
i have learnt wad it means to obey
Jesus my whole life is changed by You

im walking the path You have made
im seeking the truth everyday
Jesus my heart had been changed by You

can't walked away if i tried.
' cause Your love better than life!

now the sun is shining bright and it just wun set
cause Your life is alive and it lights my step
my heart is amazed everyday to the next
Your joy overtakes and i cant forget bout it!