sorry people. for making you all read emo stuff for the past few i dono how many days. well.which in the first place, very little people come, so doesnt matter much? haha. my managing fear notes says that if u are experiencing stiffness or soreness at your jaws or shoulder blades, or you having headaches, or you having stomach upsetness (and the list goes on). YOU ARE BEING FEARFUL OF SOMETHING. well. i am having all this. but what am i fearful of? i am fearful of God being angry at me cos i didnt choose to obey Him. BUT. i was assured of this fact-that He will never let me go. i am His princess, His daughter. one that is with flaws, yet perfectly flawed in Him. there may be accidental embraces with Man, but He holds me for eternity. im sick and tired of having one hand with Daddy and one hand with Man. i've been holding tightly to the one with Man yet carelessly MERELY PUTTING my hands in Daddy's. and yet it was Man who CARELESS MERELY PUTTING their hand in mine, and Daddy holding tightly to me. sorry Daddy, i had been taking You for granted. Your goodness, i taken advantage of it. Daddy Daddy, wo yao ni.
1:25 PM { and i opened my heart(:
Wednesday, July 25, 2007
When u have to look away When u don't have much to say That's when I love u I love u just that way To hear u stumble when u speak Or see u walk with two left feet That's when I love you I love u endlessly And when you're mad cause u lost the game Forget I'm waiting in the rain Baby I love u I love u anyway Cause here's my promise made tonight U can count on me 4 life Cause that's when I love u When nothing u do can change my mind The more I learn the more I love The more my heart can't get enough That's when I love u When I love u No matter what So when u turn to hide your eyes Cause the movie it made u cry That's when I love u I love u A little more each time And when u can't quite match you clothes Or when u laugh at your own jokes that's when I love u I love u More then u know And when u forgot that we had a date Or that look that u give when u show up late Baby I love u ,I love u anyway So here's my promise made tonight U can count on me for life Cause that's when I love u When nothing u do can change my mind The more I learn the more I love The more my heart can't get enough That's when I love u When I love u No matter what Ohh that's when I love u when nothing baby, nothing u do could change my mind The more I learn, the more I love, the more my heart can't get enough That's when I love u , when I love u no matter what Ohhhh no matter what
11:11 PM { and i opened my heart(:
let the photos speak for me today(:
went out to the long forgotten place of two years.
mummy, do u remember here?
when i called ____
when ___ tried so hard to talk to ____
when you ___
when i ____
when i sat jus now , just letting thoughts run.
good thoughts bad thoughts. sweet ones. ugly ones. words that killed, words that made a smile.
and this is the place. things were just so similar, jus that i did not ___, so it was ___ to ___ __ and now it is i did ___, so it was ___ to not ___ you. either way, no worries, there aint any ____.
10:20 PM { and i opened my heart(:
Because You Loved Me
For all those times you stood by me For all the truth that you made me see For all the joy you brought to my life For all the wrong that you made right For every dream you made come true For all the love I found in you I'll be forever thankful baby You're the one who held me up Never let me fall You're the one who saw me through through it all
You were my strength when I was weak You were my voice when I couldn't speak You were my eyes when I couldn't see You saw the best there was in me Lifted me up when I couldn't reach You gave me faith 'coz you believed I'm everything I am Because you loved me
You gave me wings and made me fly You touched my hand I could touch the sky I lost my faith, you gave it back to me You said no star was out of reach You stood by me and I stood tall I had your love I had it all I'm grateful for each day you gave me Maybe I don't know that much But I know this much is true I was blessed because I was loved by you
You were my strength when I was weak You were my voice when I couldn't speak You were my eyes when I couldn't see You saw the best there was in me Lifted me up when I couldn't reach You gave me faith 'coz you believed I'm everything I am Because You Loved Me
You were always there for me The tender wind that carried me A light in the dark shining your love into my life You've been my inspiration Through the lies you were the truth My world is a better place because of you
You were my strength when I was weak You were my voice when I couldn't speak You were my eyes when I couldn't see You saw the best there was in me Lifted me up when I couldn't reach You gave me faith 'coz you believed I'm everything I am Because you loved me I'm everything I am Because you loved me
thank You Daddy, for the times that You gave it all for me. patiently waiting for me to return to You. i know the truth, i know who are You. You are the truth.
3:04 AM { and i opened my heart(:
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
dear God thank You for loving me and giving me Your all when i grow up i will stil be serving You i want to know You more i wan to love You more i will never forget You Lord in Jesus' name, amen
i want to know You more You are a great big God i am young and do not know alot come and be my all i wan to love You more giving You my life and all You died for me You scarifice
i will not forget You my Lord i love You Jesus i grow up knowing You i love You Jesus i grow up serving You i love You Jesus my life is saved by You i will never forget never forget i'll grow up loving You
kid's prayer.is the most pure and whole.
2:55 PM { and i opened my heart(:
Monday, July 23, 2007
THANK YOU, LORD (FOR THE TRIALS)
And I thank You, Lord For the trials that come my way In that way I can grow each day As I let You lead. And I thank You, Lord For the patience those trials bring In that process of growing I can learn to care.
But it goes against the way I am To put my human nature down And let your Spirit take control of all I do Cos when those trials come My human nature shouts the thing to do And God's soft prompting can be easily ignored.
But I thank You, Lord With each trial I undergo That You're there to help lead and show The way to goAnd You promised, Lord That with every testing That Your way of withstanding's Easier to bear
Yes, I thank You, Lord For the victory that growing brings In surrender of everything Life is so worthwhile. And I thank You, Lord That when everything's put in place Out in front I can see Your face And it's there You belong.
in any circumstances, praise God. give thanks to Him thank Him for this bad event that happened to you, it made u grow thank Him for this good event that happened to you, He made it possible. even though your world may fall, God is there. say the magic sentence to Him, He'll fly to ur rescue. He's there.
11:40 AM { and i opened my heart(:
Sunday, July 22, 2007
When He rolls up His sleeves He ain't just putting on the ritz (Our God is an awesome God) There's thunder in His footsteps And lightning in His fists (Our God is an awesome God) And the Lord wasn't joking When He kicked 'em out of Eden It wasn't for no reason That He shed His blood His return is very close And so you better be believing that Our God is an awesome God
Our God is an awesome God He reigns from heaven above With wisdom, power, and love Our God is an awesome God Our God is an awesome God He reigns from heaven above With wisdom, power, and love Our God is an awesome God
And when the sky was starless In the void of the night (Our God is an awesome God) He spoke into the darkness And created the light (Our God is an awesome God) Judgement and wrath He poured out on Sodom Mercy and grace He gave us at the cross I hope that we have not Too quickly forgotten that
Our God is an awesome God Our God is an awesome God He reigns from heaven above With wisdom, power, and love Our God is an awesome God Our God is an awesome God He reigns from heaven above With wisdom, power, and love Our God is an awesome God~
i think i posted on this song before alr. but then, since nubian gents sung it ytd, i shall post it again! nice song! my zhan yi ge. HAHA!
1:30 PM { and i opened my heart(:
Saturday, July 21, 2007
RUNNING BACK HOME
Many times i failed You yet You held me dear many times i left You yet You welcomed me back with joy and now with joy i shall give with peace i shall return
he may be a jerk for all i care but i'm running back home to You. running back home to You
wash me anew as You find me take all of him from me wash me afresh as You see me i don't wanna anymore of him a new start i'm seeking with You this seek only with You.
exactly. don bother asking what it meant. it's for 3 people(:
10:54 PM { and i opened my heart(:
Friday, July 20, 2007
"Until I Get Over You" Woke up today thinking of you Another night that I made my way through So many dreams still left in my mind But they can never come true I press rewind and remember when I close my eyes and I'm with you again But in the end I can still feel the pain, every time I hear your name [Chorus] The sun won't shine since you went away Seems like the rain's falling every day There's just one heart, where there once was two But that's the way it's gotta be,'til I get over you [Verse 2] Walked through the park, in the evening air I heard a voice and I thought you were there I run away but I just can't escape Memories of you everywhere They say that time will dry the tears But true love burns for a thousand years Give my tomorrows for one yesterday Just to know that I could have you here [Bridge] When will this river of tears stop fallin' Where can I run so I won't feel alone Can't walk away when the pain keeps callin' I've just gotta take it from here on my own But it's so hard to let go things might be hard, but what can be hard enough for our God? no way. nadas.
10:36 PM { and i opened my heart(:
when God tells u not to give up, don u dare to lift one toe away from it. cos if u hold on, u will see things beginning to change! and now, one lost sheep finds its way back to Daddy. *beams with joy* all glory to God(:
5:14 AM { and i opened my heart(:
Wednesday, July 18, 2007
some random sentences if you get it den you get it lo(: 1)i love siewling 2)TLC is good all the time. 3)when it gets to a point, u tend to forgo things that u thought were impt. 4)i have trouble thinking of random sentences now 6)discount is non applicable for God's kids. 7)i have 5) missing. 8) wed is a boring day. 9) i miss ____! [ before u get the wrong idea, ask me who first hor] 10)i think im done. got no more to say alr.
12:50 AM { and i opened my heart(:
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
NUBIAN GENTS [credits to YOUTHIMPACTMEDIA]
nubian gents a team of people who does singing, dancing and moves that will blow ur mind off like synchronized foot stomping. watch the video before deciding to pass it on. trust me, u wun regret the time used on loading. it's awesome, so enjoy(:
9:34 PM { and i opened my heart(:
It is not a human right To stand afar while broken nations dream Open up our eyes, so blind That we might find the mercy for the need Hey now Fill our hearts with your compassion Hey now As we hold to our confession It is not too far a cry Too much to try to help the least of these Politicians should not decide if we should rise And be your hands and feet Singing... Hey now Fill our hearts with your compassion Hey now As we hold to our confession Whoa-oo-ooh God, be the solution [in all problems, He is the solver] Whoa-oo-ooh We will be your hands and be your feet Yeah Yeah Higher than our circumstanc eYou promise and your love for all to see Higher than our protest lines and dollar signs [yes, we chose God over money!] Your love is all we need Hey now Fill our hearts with your compassion Hey now As we hold to our confession [holding on to the fact that He is the Risen King!]<p> Whoa-oo-ooh God, be the solution Whoa-oo-ooh We will be your hands and be your feet [allowing God to do things thru US!] Whoa-oo-ooh God, be the solution Whoa-oo-ooh We will be your hands and be your feet Whoa Yeah Only you can mend the broken heart And cause the blind to see You erase complete the sinner's past [In Him, we are anew, afresh] And set the captives free Only you can take the widow's cry And cause the heart to see Be the Father to the fatherless [becos He is love!] Our Saviour and our King We will be your hands We will be your feet We run this race for the least of these [nobody said this is gg to be easy, but we will push.] In the darkest place we will be your light, We will be your light We will be your hands We will be your feet We run this race for the least of these In the darkest place we will be your light, We will be your light Whoa-oo-ooh God, be the solution Whoa-oo-ooh We will be your hands and be your feet Whoa-oo-ooh God, be the solution the orange words are the actual lyrics and green are some thoughts that strike me while i listen to the song. awesome song, it speaks the truth so clearly.
9:19 PM { and i opened my heart(:
Sunday, July 15, 2007
Nothing's gonna change my love for you If I had to live my life without you near me The days would all be empty The nights would seem so long With you I see forever oh so clearly I might have been in love before But it never felt this strong Our dreams are young and we both know They'll take us where we want to go Hold me now Touch me now I don't want to live without you Nothing's gonna change my love for you You ought to know by now how much I love you One thing you can be sure of I'll never ask for more than your love Nothing's gonna change my love for you You ought to know by now how much I love you The world may change my whole life through But nothing’s gonna change my love for you If the road ahead is not so easy Our love will lead the way for us Like a guiding star I'll be there for you if you should need me You don't have to change a thing I love you just the way you are So come with me and share the view I'll help you see forever too Hold me now Touch me now I don't want to live without you Nothing's gonna change my love for you You ought to know by now how much I love you One thing you can be sure of I'll never ask for more than your love Nothing's gonna change my love for you You ought to know by now how much I love you The world may change my whole life through But nothing’s gonna change my love for you Nothing's gonna change my love for you You ought to know by now how much I love you One thing you can be sure of I'll never ask for more than your love
saw this song on julia's blog. decided to put it up too, cos it's really nice. I AM NOT EMO-ING. thank you. HAHAHS(:
12:28 PM { and i opened my heart(:
Thursday, July 12, 2007
bad dream. i wanna forget it. forget it. forget for...
10:57 PM { and i opened my heart(:
YAY. Daddy answered my prayers today. YAY! and yes, i did the huaa thing to von agn. HAHA!
12:20 PM { and i opened my heart(:
Wednesday, July 11, 2007
something that i learnt from dota, to share with you all. [ for those non dota-players, try to understand the pic i drew below(: ] some illustrations: the home base is whr God resides. the routes we take are like the lifes we lead. enemy base is temptations.. sins.. problems.. blahh. and so! when we first start out, we will go out of our home base. and fight the creeps on the route we walk. and when we are drained, injured. some of us will have the common sense to go back to homebase to rest/regain hp. but some of us choose to hide by the trees and call out to friends nearby to save them but the friends who they called out to, are oftenly "zi shen nan bao". and it made me think. don we as christians do so too? whenever we are hurt or burdened, we don go back to God to rest, for Him to restore us. yet we rely on our human strg, hiding, calling for help from friends .. doing anything but not go back to God. and continue to battle the enemy ourselves. only for those who are wise, they know how good the base could be, how it could help them. then they will think of the base the first thing whenever they are hurt. only those ppl are able to claim victory in the end. and so. the base is always there. but do u run to it? (:
9:12 PM { and i opened my heart(:
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
despite harsh beatings from my aunt. my little cousin stil cries out for "mummy mummy wo yao ni".
and it hit me alot. a little toddler of 3 years old know how to hold on to his mother althou she treat him badly. and why is it so, that we do not know how to hold on to our Daddy in heaven when HE TREATS US SO GOOD-LY?!?! i don want to let go off Him. holds on tightly. i wanna be a koala baby to Him. HUGS(:
11:25 PM { and i opened my heart(:
Sunday, July 08, 2007
Jesus loves me! this I know, For the Bible tells me so. Little ones to Him belong; they are weak but He is strong. Yes, Jesus loves me! Yes, Jesus loves me! Yes, Jesus loves me! The Bible tells me so. Jesus loves me! loves me still,' tho I'm very weak and ill, that I might from sin be free, bled and died upon the tree. Yes, Jesus loves me! Yes, Jesus loves me! Yes, Jesus loves me! The Bible tells me so. that was the proper version.. and now for "invented" versions! Jesus loves me! He who died heaven's gate to open wide; He will wash away my sin, let His little child come in.
Jesus loves me! He will stay close beside me all the way. Thou hast bled and died for me, I will henceforth live for Thee.
Jesus loves me when I'm good. When I do the things I should. Jesus loves me when I'm bad, but it makes him oh so sad.
I love Jesus, does He know? Have I ever told Him so? Jesus likes to hear me say, That I love Him every day!
Now you've heard the true story, How Jesus died for you and me. Accept Him in your heart today, Then in heaven with Him you'll stay!
Jesus loves me this I know And I pray to Him alone. And His light shines through in me For God's people to all see!
Jesus knows me, this I love, All great things are from above; Though I sin, the Lord forgives, That is why I’m glad He lives!
Jesus hears the prayers I groan, Speaks for me at our God’s throne; His love helps me to comply, Yes, the Lord is my supply.
Jesus loves me this I know. It's thicker than a sheet of snow. He loves me, that's why he died. If I was there I would cry.
Jesus loves me, this I know. For he died His love to show. When I know he took my sin, He forgives and saves me then.
Jesus loves you, you should know, The Bible has been telling you so. The truth is that he has died for you Many many years ago.
I love Jesus does He know, Have I ever told Him so. He would like to hear me say That I love Him every day.
He loves all men, even thee, Hates the sin, but still loves ye; Call Him Lord, and seek His face. Come to Him and know His grace.
Jesus loves me as I eat Apples, oranges, eggs and meat. Apple juice is in my cup You can watch me drink it up!
Jesus loves me as I dress And I try to do my best. Upside down and inside out Sometimes clothes can make me pout!
Jesus died upon the tree Yes, he died for you and me. On the third day he arose Shout it out till the whole world knows
When my work on earth is done, And life's victories have been won. He will take me home above, Then I'll understand his love.
When the nights are dark and long, In my heart He puts a song. Telling me in words so clear, "Have no fear, for I am near."
Jesus loves me, this I know, Though my hair is white as snow. Though my sight is growing dim, Still He bids me trust in him. and now for the ultimate!!! 耶稣爱我，我知道 因为圣经告诉我 小小我们是他的 我们很弱，可是他很强 是的， 耶稣爱我 是的， 耶稣爱我 是的， 耶稣爱我 因为圣经告诉我 hoho. this is me and von de masterpiece!! sisters!(:
11:50 PM { and i opened my heart(:
that was crap. urgh. sorry.
10:14 PM { and i opened my heart(:
Saturday, July 07, 2007
I don’t care what it costs anymore‘ Cause You gave it all and I’m following You I don’t care what it takes anymore No matter what happens I’m going Your way I love You, I’ll follow You You are my, my life I will read my bible and pray I will follow You all day
Anyone around can see Just how good You’ve been to me For all my friends who don’t know You I pray that You would save them too _________________________________________________ how many of us really meant it from our hearts when we sing that part of the song to God? do we sing I will read my bible and pray, but yet chuck our bible aside once we get home? muses(:
10:47 PM { and i opened my heart(:
Thursday, July 05, 2007
ONLY GOD COULD LOVE YOU MORE
I asked the Lord for someone, and I always knew that in God's time and in God's way it would be someone like you. All my hopes and all my dreams were suddenly fulfilled It's almost unbelievable our love is in his will. Only God could love you more, for he gave me this love I have for you. What a blessing to know He's your Lord, For only God could love you more, than I do. I'm tempted to be saying , that we met by chance But God was there at every turn, In every circumstance To share this life God gave me seems such a fearful task, But every moment we have shared is more than I could ask oh well (:, God's timing and God's will. don try to get around it(:
Home to YOU
[a song that i found online, it is not a xtian song according to the owner, but i find the lyrics so right to me to say to my Daddy(: ]
get up and battle the day Things don't always go my way It might rain but that's okay I get to come home to You
Sometimes life may get me down And i get tired of getting kicked around I feel lost in this maddening crowd But i get to come home to You
You are my best friend And You are where my heart is And i know at the day's end I get to come home to You
Hanging out in our old sweatshirts You let me complain about a hard day's work I don't know what i did to deserve To get to come home to You Yes i get to come home to You Oh i love coming home to You
these two songs. hahaha. if you wanna listen to them, ask me to send to you(:
8:39 PM { and i opened my heart(:
SLEEPLESS NIGHTS! im tired. but got alot of project to do. well. at least i got my teammates and friends to chiong with me LOVE YOU ALL!!(: note to all. don listen to worship songs when u are chionging proj late at night. LOL(:
1:54 AM { and i opened my heart(:
Tuesday, July 03, 2007
if sth doesnt benefits anything, don say it at all. how far do u agree to this statement? i don. but sometime i jus have to. feelings and emotions are troublesome. human shud be void of it. how far do u agree to this statement? i do. but sometime it is needed. ants attack anything in sight, no matter sweet or not. how far do u agree to this statement? i agree 1000%. eating too many of donuts,make u sick of them. how far do u agree to this statement? i don. but gradually i do. guitar is painless. how far do u agree to this statement? i disagree 1000%!!!! our God is an awesome God. how far do u agree to this statement? i agree to the fullest extent. and i still do!
8:29 PM { and i opened my heart(:
so lame!!! i PRACTICED my BCA today! ask me how!! by helping munkidd find out which email was the error one. den i used filtering [ excel!!!] and i used find and replace [excel!!!] wanted to play with pie charts and stuff. but well. HAHAHAH. lame laa!! but at least sth to motivate me to cont learning BCA. cos it is a practical module! hehh(: did LMS filming today!! so lame. poor yuexin tio slapped 4-5 times excluding NGs. erts. hahas. but we had fun. to KAIXIN: ni yao bu yao drink water? cup or bottle? LOL LAHHH!!!!! [ inside joke. hahahha]
12:41 AM { and i opened my heart(:
Monday, July 02, 2007
i got the guitar from meiyee alr!! yay! thank you sooo much! hugs!!!!(: but it will go ZARRR whenever u strum it. kinda irritating. hahhaa!! well. im stil happy. hahas. thank you.. ahhh.. i need all the wisdom from YOU God!!! to learn this guitar thing!!
