Saturday, November 19, 2005
actually sometime humans are jus weird. when something they wanted and they could get it. they get sad disappointed.. but when they finally got it. but its afterr ppl let go. u realise dat it wasnt dat happy to haf dat thing anymore. somehow u don find joy in sth dat u thought u will be happy with. weird huh? the last month was a weird and frustratiing one.. with everyones' problem popping out.. and im being in the middle of the mess. am i such a dumb person. ownself de problem haven settle stil run over settle ppl thing. but im jus gold things worked out ferr her. at least u made me feel usefull .. which i had not been feeling for a long time. yea. today significe an end to everything dat had been happening in the past 1 month.. sorta relieaved. yet uneasy. i jus feel dat i don deserve all this. contridating huhh. but i learnt something. if life isnt contridating ferr u,u aint living actually. yeA? a fren told me. sounded reasonable. but i really don wanna scarifice a frenship jus for a relationship. its jus aint worth it. u noe? i noe its realli unfiar to him. but if its either him or eu,i rather haf eu. eu noe. cos its jus aint worth it. i jus hope dat all dat u had done fer us aint in vain. i'll try to treasure and love. for ur sake. for my sake and for his sake. for everyones' good.
to dat special gurl
[.:.rawr rawr. da ying wo ni bu ke yi bu he wo hao. okiies? rawr rawr.:.]zhi xiang tell u yi shengDUI BU QI
2:22 PM { and i opened my heart(:
